Sometimes we ask for signs. Sometimes we don’t ask for them (because we really don’t want them), but God gives them to us anyway. Sometimes there are mornings like this, when the signs are literal. And big. And neon.
It’s been a tough week. I was reminded over and over again of my tendency towards self-centeredness. As I was praying a difficult prayer of confession out loud in my car on the way to work this morning, God agreed with me. I kind of hate when He does that.
There it was. In big neon letters. “ME AGAIN”. I’m not kidding. There’s a local consignment store here in West Palm Beach called “HOME AGAIN”. Only the “h” and the “o” were burned out. So in the dark, pre-dawn hours, there it was, shining brightly on the side of the road. “ME AGAIN”. Just as I was telling God how prideful I can be, He didn’t try to make me feel better. He agreed with me.
“ME AGAIN” comes so naturally to us. Our sin nature pulls us in that direction time and time again. It’s easy to ignore it or minimize it, to think we’re not that bad, to see the obvious pride in others but not in ourselves. I wish I could have gone back and taken a picture, one that would forever remind me of my desire to put myself first, to focus on my needs instead of the needs of others.
But you know, something tells me I will remember it, even without the picture. I’m hoping that each time I begin to go down the path of pride, I’ll think about that sign and be quicker to make the conscious choice to not to have it be all about “me again”. Prayers of confession aren’t always accompanied by literal and shining confirmations from God that we are indeed sinful creatures. We’d like to just confess, wrap it up and get on with our lives. He will always forgive, but maybe God knows that we still need to think about it for awhile, to have the reminder ready for the next time pride rears its ugly head.
And as we all know, there will be a next time.
Thanks, Home Again. Your burned out bulbs gave me an extra honest time with God this morning, and reminded me once more that it can’t be all about “ME AGAIN”.
Pride comes before destruction, and an arrogant spirit before a fall. Proverbs 16:18
A person’s pride will humble him, but a humble spirit will gain honor. Proverbs 29:23
The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it? Jeremiah 17:9