Patience

Celebrating Advent means being able to wait. Waiting is an art that our impatient age has forgotten. It wants to break open the ripe fruit when it has hardly finished planting the shoot. But all too often the greedy eyes are only deceived; the fruit that seemed so precious is still green on the inside, and disrespectful hands ungratefully toss aside what has so disappointed them. Whoever does not know the austere blessedness of waiting – that is, of hopefully doing without – will never experience the full blessing of fulfillment.

Dietrich Bonhoeffer, from the book – “God Is In the Manger”

While they were there, the time came for the baby to be born. Luke 2:6

The plans of the LORD stand firm forever, the purposes of his heart through all generations. Psalm 33:11

There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens. Ecclesiastes 3:1

Undecorated

Do I need decorations and lights to get into the Christmas “spirit”?

That’s the strange question that came to my mind this past Saturday morning as I pondered whether or not that would be the day I’d haul out the boxes of garland and lights and the pre-lit fake tree. I sat at my dining room table and looked out into the living room that has looked basically the same since I took down the Christmas decorations last January.

It’s even harder to get into a holiday mood here in Florida where the temperature is a balmy 80 degrees and the holiday sweaters will make you do just that – sweat.

I wrote last week that I wanted to reflect more about the expectation of the coming of the Messiah, and that I wanted to be reminded of the longing of the world before that baby arrived in Bethlehem after years and years and years of waiting for Him.

So maybe an undecorated living room two weeks before Christmas is the way to really do that. Maybe we need a December equivalent of Good Friday. Maybe we need a day to think about the darkness of a world without the Light before we get the warm fuzzies from ornaments and wreaths and songs about mangers.

If your house doesn’t have its tinsel and lights yet, if your kitchen doesn’t smell like gingerbread and you haven’t gotten out your holiday sweater, it may actually be a good thing. It may be that God is giving you the chance to experience a few moments of sensory quiet to think about how dark it was before the Father of lights sent that baby to Bethlehem.

And then when the decoration boxes finally do come out and the music is loudly proclaiming “Joy to The World” and the kitchen smells like all things good, maybe it will mean more because you let the undecorated days give you the Christmas spirit too.

I did.

I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly. John 10:10

Every good gift and perfect gift is from above, and comes down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variation or shadow of turning. James 1:17

… the LORD will be to you an everlasting light, and your God your glory. Isaiah 60:19

That was the true Light, which gives light to every man coming into the world. John 1:9

Advent

I’m still learning about this whole thing called “Advent”. I just haven’t attended churches that formally recognized and named this pre-Christmas season before now.

But I’m liking it so far.

I like the idea of a season of reflection and preparation. I like the idea of preparing my heart for Christmas. It’s good to be reminded of the longing and the waiting and the expectation of God’s people. When I get caught up in my own longing and waiting, it seems silly in light of waiting for the Messiah.

They were waiting for Jesus! They were waiting for redemption and rescue – things I already have, and too often forget to be thankful for. It’s hard to imagine being without a Savior, being without comfort and joy.

So I’m going to really try to be more intentional over the next few weeks. I’m going to stop and think and reflect more. Prepare more.

And expect more.


Come, Thou long expected Jesus
Born to set Thy people free;
From our fears and sins release us,
Let us find our rest in Thee.
Israel’s strength and consolation,
Hope of all the earth Thou art;
Dear desire of every nation,
Joy of every longing heart.

Born Thy people to deliver,
Born a child and yet a king,
Born to reign in us forever,
Now Thy gracious kingdom bring.
By Thine own eternal Spirit
Rule in all our hearts alone;
By Thine all sufficient merit,
Raise us to Thy glorious throne.

“Come Thou Long Expected Jesus”, by Charles Wesley 1745

Now when these things begin to happen, look up and lift up your heads, because your redemption draws near. Luke 21:28

For the earnest expectation of the creation eagerly waits for the revealing of the sons of God. Romans 8:19

For behold, the darkness shall cover the earth,
And deep darkness the people;
But the LORD will arise over you,
And His glory will be seen upon you. Isaiah 60:2

Proclamation

Thanksgiving Day was never really supposed to be about the turkey, the pies or the football. And it certainly was not about Christmas sales. It was supposed to be about prayer and praise to Almighty God. Seems we’ve forgotten that. So here’s something to help us remember. These are the words of President Abraham Lincoln when he established the 4th Thursday of every November as the holiday we’ve come to know as Thanksgiving. I’ve highlighted some of the parts that I want to let sink in this week. Maybe we should start calling it “Thanksgiving and Praise Day”.

Now that would make us stop and think, wouldn’t it?

Thanksgiving proclamation by President Abraham Lincoln, October 3rd, 1863:

The year that is drawing towards its close, has been filled with the blessings of fruitful fields and healthful skies. To these bounties, which are so constantly enjoyed that we are prone to forget the source from which they come, others have been added, which are of so extraordinary a nature, that they cannot fail to penetrate and soften even the heart which is habitually insensible to the ever watchful providence of Almighty God. In the midst of a civil war of unequaled magnitude and severity, which has sometimes seemed to foreign States to invite and to provoke their aggression, peace has been preserved with all nations, order has been maintained, the laws have been respected and obeyed, and harmony has prevailed everywhere except in the theatre of military conflict; while that theatre has been greatly contracted by the advancing armies and navies of the Union. Needful diversions of wealth and of strength from the fields of peaceful industry to the national defence, have not arrested the plough, the shuttle or the ship; the axe has enlarged the borders of our settlements, and the mines, as well of iron and coal as of the precious metals, have yielded even more abundantly than heretofore. Population has steadily increased, notwithstanding the waste that has been made in the camp, the siege and the battle-field; and the country, rejoicing in the consiousness of augmented strength and vigor, is permitted to expect continuance of years with large increase of freedom. No human counsel hath devised nor hath any mortal hand worked out these great things. They are the gracious gifts of the Most High God, who, while dealing with us in anger for our sins, hath nevertheless remembered mercy. It has seemed to me fit and proper that they should be solemnly, reverently and gratefully acknowledged as with one heart and one voice by the whole American People. I do therefore invite my fellow citizens in every part of the United States, and also those who are at sea and those who are sojourning in foreign lands, to set apart and observe the last Thursday of November next, as a day of Thanksgiving and Praise to our beneficent Father who dwelleth in the Heavens. And I recommend to them that while offering up the ascriptions justly due to Him for such singular deliverances and blessings, they do also, with humble penitence for our national perverseness and disobedience, commend to His tender care all those who have become widows, orphans, mourners or sufferers in the lamentable civil strife in which we are unavoidably engaged, and fervently implore the interposition of the Almighty Hand to heal the wounds of the nation and to restore it as soon as may be consistent with the Divine purposes to the full enjoyment of peace, harmony, tranquillity and Union.
In testimony whereof, I have hereunto set my hand and caused the Seal of the United States to be affixed.

Done at the City of Washington, this Third day of October, in the year of our Lord one thousand eight hundred and sixty-three, and of the Independence of the Unites States the Eighty-eighth.

By the President: Abraham Lincoln

courtesy of http://www.abrahamlincolnonline.org/lincoln/speeches/thanks.htm

Enter into His gates with thanksgiving. And into His courts with praise. Be thankful to Him, and bless His name. Psalm 100:4

Anniversary

Ten years ago today I got a phone call that changed my life.

I remember it like it was yesterday. I was sitting in my car waiting outside an office for a scheduled appointment, and as is usually the case with me, I was early. So out of boredom, I called home from my cell phone to check the messages on my answering machine. Yes, we had answering machines in those days. It might have even had one of those tiny little cassettes.

And there it was. An offer from a publisher. To publish my book.

I don’t remember much about the appointment that followed, only that I’m amazed I kept it all together, pretending it was a normal day and that this was just another meeting I had to check off my to-do list. I wanted to scream, “Don’t you people understand that my life just changed???”

But I didn’t.

I went home and listened to the message again and returned the call and told them yes, I’d love to have them publish my book. And then I sat down at my kitchen table and wrote out a prayer in my quiet time journal before I made any other phone call to my family or friends. Because this was God’s project, not mine. And I needed to speak with Him about it first.

“Lord, you’re the first one I want to come to with this! A publisher wants to make me an offer! My head is spinning and I want to cry and laugh and jump all at the same time. It’s been a long road, but I entered a new path today. I don’t know where it will go from here, but “thanks” doesn’t seem like enough. Give me wisdom and discernment . I haven’t been down this route before, but You have, and You know how to take care of me”. And He has.

He gave me a platform to tell other single women what He had shown me about waiting and trusting and believing. And in His wisdom and love, He has kept me single myself. That wasn’t my plan, but I think sometimes that it’s opening more doors and giving me more credibility in the area of trusting God with the most personal desires of our hearts. And since that phone call in November of 2003, there has been a Spanish version published and both an English and Spanish blog, and God has brought me into contact with so many amazing people.

Because of a phone call.

It’s a reminder to me that God can change anything, anytime, in any way He wants. Sometimes we plod along for years waiting for The Big Moment we’ve dreamed of. Sometimes it’s not a Big Moment. Sometimes we just need to know God is still at work in our lives, in our challenges, in our everydays.

I didn’t wake up that morning thinking that it was the day that would change my life. I didn’t wake up this morning thinking that TODAY could change my life. But the great thing is knowing and believing that God can change anything, anytime, in any way He wants. Maybe today.

And I like that.

(And P.S. – Anticipatience is is being re-released as an e-book soon! Stay tuned!)

The faithful love of the LORD never ends! His mercies never cease. Great is His faithfulness; His mercies begin afresh each morning. Lamentations 3:22-23 (NLT)

Delight yourself also in the LORD, and He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the LORD. Trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass. Psalm 37:4-5

For I considered all this in my heart, so that I could declare it all: that the righteous and the wise and their works are in the hand of God. Ecclesiastes 9:1

Fair

“But it’s not fair!”

It’s usually something you hear from a child when some great injustice has been placed upon them, something like having to go to bed while others stay up, or getting a perceived smaller piece of cake than a sibling.

But truth be told, sometimes it’s the grown-ups who say it. Oh, maybe we don’t stamp our feet and cry and carry on, but somewhere deep in our hearts, we say it. And sometimes we say it to God.

We believe that life isn’t fair, that God treats others differently than us, that He blesses some and withholds blessing from others. We toy with the idea that He’s placed some great injustice upon us.

And apparently, mankind has had this tendency for some time.

Yet you say, “The way of the Lord is not fair”. Hear now, O house of Israel, is it not My way which is fair and your ways which are not fair?” Ezekiel 18:25

I’ve thought those words. I’ve always tried not to dwell on them, tried not give Satan a foothold. I know that if I linger on the “unfairness” of life, I’ll begin to doubt the goodness of God. But sometimes the “it’s not fair” slips through. I look at the blessings others have, I remember how long I’ve waited for some prayers to be answered, I think that others have an easier road to travel than I do.

And in doing so, I forget that God’s ways are higher than my ways, His knowledge is limitless, His wisdom so much better than mine.

I’ve always loved the end of the book of Job, where after Job’s friends have gone on and on about what they think Job has done wrong to deserve his misery and how they think he can fix it, God steps up and puts them all in their place.

Where were you when I laid the foundations of the earth? Tell me, if you have understanding. Who determines its measurements? Surely you know! Or who stretched the line upon it? To what were its foundations fastened? Or who laid its cornerstone, when the morning stars sang together and all the sons of God shouted for joy? Or who shut in the sea with its doors, when it burst forth and issued from the womb; when I made the clouds its garment, and thick darkness its swaddling band; when I fixed My limit for it, and set bars and doors; when I said, “This far you may come, but no farther and here your proud waves must stop!” (Job 38:4-11)

In other words, God knows exactly what He’s doing, and for us to question it or question Him or think we know better is silly and ignorant indeed. God’s ways are fair and if I am His child, His ways are for my good and my growth.

And there’s nothing unfair about that.

But indeed, O man, who are you to reply against God? Will the thing formed say to him who formed it, “Why have you made me like this?” Romans 9:20

He is the Rock, His work is perfect;
For all His ways are justice,
A God of truth and without injustice;
Righteous and upright is He. Deuteronomy 32:4

The LORD is righteous in all His ways,
Gracious in all His works. Psalm 145:17

The LORD is righteous in her midst,
He will do no unrighteousness.
Every morning He brings His justice to light;
He never fails,
But the unjust knows no shame. Zephaniah 3:5

Wrestling

I’ve been wrestling lately.

No, no. Not THAT kind of wrestling. You won’t find me in ill-fitting spandex or strange headgear. It’s the kind of wrestling that happens in my head and in my heart.

And I think it’s been good for me, in spite of how frustrated I get sometimes.

I’ve been wrestling with some theological issues. Nothing of the “non-negotiable” variety, but ones where good theologians appear to come down on completely different sides of the fences. And where others might just shrug their shoulders and not get all worked up over them, for some reason God is drawing me to wrestle with them myself.

It’s hard work. I wonder, “Who am I to question these great scholars?”. But when I start thinking that way, I remember that I am just as worthy to search the scriptures as they are. It’s my Father’s book, after all. I am grateful for diligent men and women who have dedicated their lives to studying the Bible and who have spent years, decades even, making their work accessible to us common-folk.

But that doesn’t mean that I don’t have to study things for myself. It doesn’t mean that I am to accept their conclusions without checking them against the Bible on my own.

And God invites us to do that. He wants us to be like the Bereans, receiving the Word from those who preach and teach it, but searching the scriptures daily to test them for ourselves:

These were more fair-minded than those in Thessalonica, in that they received the word with all readiness, and searched the Scriptures daily to find out whether these things were so. Acts 17:11

So I’ll keep searching and wrestling. And though I don’t know where I’ll end up, I know God will use it in my life.

Wrestling can be good for the heart, and the soul.

A wise man will hear and increase learning, and a man of understanding will attain wise counsel, Proverbs 1:5

All Scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness, that the man of God may be complete, thoroughly equipped for every good work. 2 Timothy 3:16-17

My son, if you receive my words,
And treasure my commands within you,
So that you incline your ear to wisdom,
And apply your heart to understanding;
Yes, if you cry out for discernment,
And lift up your voice for understanding,
If you seek her as silver,
And search for her as for hidden treasures;
Then you will understand the fear of the LORD,
And find the knowledge of God Proverbs 2:1-5

Daybreak

The sunrises have been particularly spectacular around here the past few weeks. This was the view walking to my office yesterday morning:

morning

I love mornings. A new day with new opportunites and new chances to see what God will do. I found this poem recently, set to music as a hymn. Maybe someday I’ll learn the music to it, but this morning, the words were enough.

I am with Thee…

Still, still with Thee, when purple morning breaketh,
When the bird waketh, and the shadows flee;
Fairer than the morning, lovelier than daylight,
Dawns the sweet consciousness, I am with Thee.

Alone with Thee, amid the mystic shadows,
The solemn hush of nature newly born;
Alone with Thee in breathless adoration,
In the calm dew and freshness of the morn.

Still, still with Thee! As to each newborn morning
A fresh and solemn splendor still is giv’n,
So does this blessed consciousness, awaking,
Breathe each day nearness unto Thee and heav’n.

When sinks the soul, subdued by toil, to slumber,
Its closing eyes look up to Thee in prayer;
Sweet the repose beneath Thy wings o’ershading,
But sweeter still, to wake and find Thee there.

So shall it be at last in that bright morning,
When the soul waketh and the shadows flee;
O in that hour, fairer than the daylight dawning,
Shall rise the glorious thought, I am with Thee.

by Harriet B. Stowe
Hymn, “Still, Still With Thee”

Through the LORD’s mercies we are not consumed,
Because His compassions fail not.
They are new every morning;
Great is Your faithfulness. Lamentations 3:22-23

Every morning He brings His justice to light; He never fails… Zephaniah 3:5

Weeping may endure for a night,
But joy comes in the morning. Psalm 3:5

Resilient

As I sat on my living room floor on Sunday afternoon sorting through a box of old journals, letters and cards, I realized that I was OK.

I didn’t go looking for that affirmation, and the thought hadn’t occurred to me that I wasn’t OK. I thought it was just going to be an afternoon of pitching ridiculous stuff I had saved way too long. But as I took an unexpected walk down memory lane, it occurred to me that things that should have derailed me or made me want to jump off the cliff of hopelessness hadn’t done that at all.

God had made me resilient.

And sometimes you don’t know that you’ve been resilient until you can look back over your shoulder at the challenges and the darker episodes in your life and see where you were and where you are now. And if you put it in a spiritual perspective instead of patting yourself on the back for how stoic you are, you know that it was God’s work, not your own.

Years from now there may be another box I’ll need to go through or another old journal to read, reminders of the things going on in my life right now. And I hope that spiritual resilience will have characterized those years in between, too.

Resilience doesn’t mean I don’t have struggles and questions and regrets and discouragements along the way. It simply means I’ve gotten better at recognizing them as opportunities to trust God.

And that only comes with being given the chances to do…just that.

And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 2 Corinthians 12:9

Not that we are sufficient of ourselves to think of anything as being from ourselves, but our sufficiency is from God. 2 Corinthians 3:5

When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
And through the rivers, they shall not overflow you.
When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned,
Nor shall the flame scorch you. Isaiah 43:2

October

I’m privately celebrating today.

I love to turn the calendar page to October. Here in my part of the world it signals the beginning of Fall, though I know it “officially” became Fall a few weeks ago. It’s the beginning of the last quarter of the year. And while it’s still pretty hot where I live, the shadows are starting to get longer and the days are just a tiny bit shorter.

I breathe a sigh of relief when I know August and September are behind me. It’s the busiest time of the year for me as the new school season starts and students return to campus and classes. By the time October comes, it seems we’ve gotten into our routines.

Something about October makes me relax. It also makes me yearn for “home” in New Jersey, where I know the leaves are turning on the trees and it’s just cool enough to make me happy. So thankful to have spent this past weekend there with my family – all 13 of us were together for a day of picnicking and fun.

I’m grateful for seasons. Grateful that God has given us different cycles of circumstance and weather. As the past season is now a memory, I’m looking forward to the new one. Looking forward to what God has planned for me, for my family, for people I care for.

Lord, thank you for Your designs. Thank you for the way you order the earth and order our lives. We don’t know what the new season will bring, but You do. Help us to trust You through each of its days.

Then God said, “Let there be lights in the firmament of the heavens to divide the day from the night; and let them be for signs and seasons, and for days and years”. Genesis 1:14

So teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom. Psalm 90:12

The day is Yours, the night also is Yours; You have prepared the light and the sun. You have set all the borders of the earth; You have made summer and winter. Psalm 74:16-17